“Let us return to the magic hour of our birth for which we mourn.”
Kofi Awoonor
THE PERFECT VICTIM
By Linda Castillo
Prologue
She had dreamed of him. Dark, disturbing dreams filled with blood and violence and a vague sense of terror. Dreams that choked her with the familiar sting of shame and dredged up memories of a past she'd spent her entire life trying to forget.
Huddled in the threadbare recliner, Agnes Beckett watched the hands of the clock sweep to midnight, knowing sleep would not come again. It was the kind of night that evoked demons. The kind of night that made her wonder why her subconscious had waited until now to torment her. She'd always believed she'd come to terms with her past. It was somehow disappointing, and strangely ironic to realize after all these years those demons still frightened her.
A faint rasping, like the frenzied gnawing of a cold rodent, sounded just outside the front door. Hauling herself to her feet, she made her way to the kitchen, the thought of rats bringing a curse to her lips.
At the door, she flipped on the porch light and spread the home-made curtains. Beyond, a thin veil of snow whispered across the plowed field, gathering at the frozen peaks of earth, stark and white against black.
She leaned close to the glass, straining to see the maple tree that grew alongside the mobile home. Spindly fingers of ice clung like transparent talons to the branches and grated against the siding. A reflexive sigh of relief slid between her lips. It wasn't rats. Just the wind.
An instant later the door burst inward, striking her in the chest hard enough to knock the breath from her. Shock flashed through her, followed by a fleeting sense of realization, and an instant of disbelief.
A man entered her kitchen. Terror snaked through her as she took in the sight of him--long black coat, shiny leather gloves, face concealed behind a ski mask.
"Who are you?" she cried.
Reptilian eyes stared at her through the slits of the knit mask. "Destiny," he whispered.
Not much frightened Agnes Beckett these days. She'd led a hard life filled with the kinds of experiences that destroyed the weak and made the strong stronger. But as she watched the intruder close the door behind him, a fear she'd never experienced in her youth wrapped around her and squeezed, like a snake crushing the life from its prey.
It was the stare, she realized, inhuman in its intensity, the eyes dispassionate and resolute, filled with unspeakable purpose.
Spinning, she propelled herself into a dead run for the bedroom. She was aware of him moving behind her, but she didn't stop. She ran blindly, arms outstretched, tripping over the cheap throw rug, righting herself just as she flung herself forward into the narrow hall. She sensed his closeness as she ran, heard the sound of his boots on the carpet, his breathing above her own labored gasps.
A sliver of panic pierced the last of her control and worked its way into her like a shard of glass into flesh. Lunging at the night table, she snatched up the phone and punched zero. But the line was as silent and cold as the terror exploding in her brain.
Breaths rushing between clenched teeth, she spun on her attacker. The sight of the knife sent a scream pouring from her throat. In that instant, she knew she was going to die. A vile bitterness welled up inside her that her life would be wiped out this way. So suddenly and with so much violence.
He leaped forward, tiny eyes fixed on hers, as cold and emotionless as a taxidermist's glass. She raised her hands in defense. The blade came down, slicing into the flesh between her fingers, rising again, then cutting deep. The scream that followed was hoarse and weak. Her own. And, the blood. So much blood....
A split second of flittering light and the knife plunged again. There was no real pain, but the knowledge that she'd been badly injured flowed into her as surely as the blood coursed between her breasts.
She lashed out with her fists, but she was too weak to fight. As she sank to her knees in the narrow hall, she knew, after all these years, he'd finally come for her. Master of her fate. Her past. And, now, her destiny. The realization came with a rush of pain, of unfulfillment, of hatred. She'd been living on borrowed time. His time. Bastard.
The knife slashed upward. She felt the pressure of the blade as it bit into her throat. She tried to scream, but her voice was gone. Her vision blurred. Panic fluttered away. Her senses dimmed as if a switch inside her head had been suddenly and viciously turned off.
She heard gurgling, an undignified sound that had come from somewhere deep inside her. Light ebbed into darkness. Thoughts fragmented, memories tumbled away into oblivion, lost forever, as though they had never existed. She slid to the floor, her blood-soaked flannel shirt catching on the nails in the cheap paneling.
Outside the front door, the maple danced with the wind.
Chapter 1
Addison Fox heaved the last box onto the dappled marble counter and stepped back to catch her breath. "I am not going to panic." Tossing her full-length coat onto the bar stool next to her, she shot a glance at the clock above the massive brass espresso maker. The clock glared back, daring her to take the time to make a pot of coffee.
It was already past 6 A.M., which gave her less than an hour to prepare for the morning rush. "Great," she murmured, blowing a breath of frustration through her bangs.
It was the day after Thanksgiving, and the holiday season had fallen over the city of Denver with all the vivacity of a first snowfall. She'd had every intention of being prepared, but it was going to take much more than good intentions to get three boxes of Christmas decorations up in forty-five minutes.
Hands on her hips, she studied the boxes, trying to decide which decorations to put up now and which ones would have to wait until later. She opened the first box and wrinkled her nose at the rise of dust and the sight of the thrice-used coil of garland. Shoving the box aside for an expeditious return to the attic, she reached for the second and pried it open.
As always, she wanted everything to be perfect in the gourmet coffee shop she owned and operated. Located in the historical district of downtown, The Coffee Cup was the center of her life. She went to impossible lengths to keep the Kona fresh-brewed hourly, the apricot scones warm and soft, and the porcelain tea pots arranged just so. It was that kind of perfectionism, according to the Rocky Mountain News, that had earned her the reputation of having the best coffee in town.
Addison spent countless hours blending unusual combinations of beans, experimenting with temperatures and grinds, striving for a more perfect cup of coffee. It was a career she cherished in a town she loved passionately. She adored her customers with their quirky demands and tastes, and knew it was her attention to detail that had them coming back again and again.
After sinking her life savings into the failing coffee shop, she'd spent two months designing the interior herself, combining antiques with the avant-garde, and old-world tradition with modern day high-tech. The old-fashioned soda fountain inspired an aura of yesteryear while the scientific brewing techniques maintained the sophisticated tastes her customers demanded.
"They also expect you to open on time," she said aloud, shoving the box aside and attacking the next.
The bell mounted on the rear door jingled merrily. Addison looked up to see Gretchen Wentworth lugging a cardboard box onto the bar. "Don't ask," the woman said crossly, taking her bifocals from the tip of her nose to wipe away the condensation.
Addison lowered her eyes to hide the smile lurking behind them, knowing Gretchen didn't have a cross bone in her body. "I'll forgive you for being late if you make coffee, Gretch."
"You're easy when you're desperate." The older woman shoved the glasses back onto her nose and scowled at the clock.
"Would you make it Sumatra?" Addison added. "I need the extra caffeine this morning."
"It's going to take more than a little caffeine to get all these decorations up before the rush." Gretchen pulled off her coat and picked up Addison's, taking both to the small storage room at the rear of the store. "It's been twenty years since I overslept," she grumbled, sliding behind the counter.
"I didn't ask," Addison said, unconcerned. She opened the box her friend had hauled in, pulled out a string of tiny, colorful lights, and felt a flutter of child-like excitement. "Do they blink?"
Gretchen scooped coffee beans from the glass display case and poured them into the grinder. Neither woman spoke as the grinder worked magic. "Yes, they blink," she said when the grinding was finished. "At least they did last year."
Addison succumbed to a smile as she pulled the bundle of tangled lights from the box and carried them to the window at the front of the store. "Perfect," she said and went to work.
Two hours later, she stood behind the bar, watching the lights at the front window blink in an electrical rainbow of color that had her smiling again. Christmas was her favorite holiday, one she went all out to enjoy. She knew, however, this year would be different. It was her second Christmas at The Coffee Cup; her first without her parents.
The thought sent a familiar pang of sadness slicing through her as it had so many times in the last nine months. She still found herself disbelieving that fate could be so cruel, that at the age of twenty-six she had been faced with the deaths of two people who had given her unconditional love her entire life.
Patty and Larry Fox had adopted her at birth, loved her as a child, and spoiled her as a teenager. They'd put her through four years of college, then given her a hand in purchasing the upscale coffee shop. She couldn't have asked for better parents, and she couldn't have loved them more. She'd been devastated when they'd perished in a car accident near their home in Breckenridge.
Until recently, she wouldn't have believed it was possible not to feel that gut-wrenching, life-altering hurt. But with the passage of time the pain had eased and, finally, Addison knew she was beginning to heal.
"Looks like we survived another caffeine rush." Gretchen's voice jerked Addison from her melancholy thoughts. Thoughts she had no right to be thinking on such a busy morning.
Shaking off the reverie, Addison produced a smile and flipped the switch on the espresso maker. "Speaking of caffeine, do you want an espresso?" she asked, hoping her friend didn't notice the lack of zeal in her smile.
The older woman's eyes caught hers and held them. "You look like you've been up all night again."
Addison laughed, an automatic response designed to conceal, something she did far too often these days. "Best-selling mystery novels and sleep don't mix, Gretch," she said, hating that she'd fallen to telling little white lies. Pulling two demitasse cups from beneath the bar, she poured espresso.
"You're not a very good fibber, Addison. I suspected you were still researching."
"You make it sound as if I've been designing weapons of mass destruction."
"The only thing you're going to destroy is yourself. I know how hard you push."
"I dabble in my spare time, Gretch. Nothing wrong with that."
"Honey, you don't have any spare time."
Addison didn't expect Gretchen to understand the urgency that had driven her to spend the last nine months searching for her birth parents. Gretchen had three children and four grandchildren to fill her life, while Addison had no relatives she knew of. How could she stop searching for her birth parents knowing that somewhere she had family?
"I'm closer to finding them than I've ever been, Gretch. This search is the most important thing in my life right now. Until I've exhausted every possible lead, I can't stop."
"I'm not asking you to stop. I just want you to realize that there may come a day when it will be time to put this to rest and get on with your life."
Addison took a deep breath, grappling for patience that had worn thin over the months. "I need to know where I came from. I need to know who they are. What they're like--"
"Why they gave you up?"
The question hit a nerve; it always did. But Addison didn't let herself react. It was silly to let that bother her. After all, she was a well-adjusted twenty-six year old woman with a successful business that kept her too busy to sneeze most days. "I'm sure they had very good reasons for giving me up."
"Have you considered the possibility that they may want to remain anonymous? That they may not want their privacy invaded?"
"I'm prepared for that." Even as she said the words, Addison wondered just how prepared she really was.
"Honey, I'm proud of what you've accomplished so far. I just don't want you to drive yourself so hard." Gretchen's voice firmed. "I don't want you to get obsessed with something that may never pan out."
Addison had always admired Gretchen's straightforward manner. There was no second-guessing her opinionated friend, and Addison loved her dearly for it. Gretchen was the closest thing to a grandmother she'd ever had, and Addison cherished their relationship. "I'm not obsessed."
"You put in sixty hours a week here, then spend what little time you have left writing letters and making calls. You're twenty-six years old, Addison. You should be going to parties and out on dates."
"You wouldn't be saying that if you knew how badly my last date turned out."
"That strapping young stockbroker?"
"The strapping young stockbroker who was old enough to be my father and failed to tell me he had a wife and four kids in Peoria."
Gretchen managed to look appalled. "One bad apple doesn't mean you should give up on the entire male population."
Addison knew her friend was right. She didn't socialize much. She didn't go out on dates or get invited to parties. With a business that demanded her attention seven days a week, who had the time? Finding a man simply wasn't on her list of priorities.
"I haven't given up. I'm just...prioritizing." Hoping to return the conversation to the matter at hand, Addison came up behind her and kissed her cheek, taking in the subtle scent of Chanel. "If I don't get a break or uncover some new information soon, I'll ease up for a while. I promise."
Turning to her, Gretchen placed a gentle hand on her shoulder. "I just want you to be happy."
"I am happy. I'm doing exactly what I want." A wistful sigh escaped her lips. "I just wish I'd had the chance to tell Mom and Dad about my search. I wanted their blessing."
"Your parents would have encouraged you, Addison."
Emotion swept through her, and for a moment she had to blink back unexpected tears. God, she missed them. "I know," she said quietly. "Thanks for reminding me."
Gretchen busied herself wiping the counter with the ever-present towel she kept tucked into the pocket of her apron. "Well, are you going to keep me in the dark or tell me what you've been working on?"
Excitement rippled through Addison. It felt good to talk about her search and everything she'd accomplished in the last nine months. "I found a new web site on the Internet last night."
"Be careful out in cyberspace, honey. You know what happened to Sandra Bullock in that movie."
Addison pursed her lips to keep from smiling. "I drove up to the cabin last weekend."
Gretchen stopped wiping and looked at her. "I wish you'd told me. I would have gone with you."
"I needed to do it on my own. I should have gone through their things months ago, Gretch. I couldn't put it off any longer. Anyway, when I was looking through Dad's desk I found some old papers."
"On the adoption?"
Addison nodded, remembering her shock upon discovering the tattered file in the bottom drawer of her father's desk. The documents inside were the only clues her parents had left behind.
“I was born in Dayton, Ohio. My birth mother relinquished me when I was three days old. According to the one of the documents, my original name was Colleen Glass."
"Odd to think of you as anybody besides Addison Fox."
"It's a strange feeling to know my name and identity, my very fate changed in the span of a single day."
"At least you have a name to go on."
"I've contacted every Glass in and around Dayton with no luck." Addison sighed, remembering with painful clarity the frustration and heartache each time she came up empty-handed.
"You're the only person I know who considers the City Directory quality reading."
Thankful she had Gretchen to keep her sane, Addison laughed. "I've taken the search about as far as I can."
"What about that ambulance chaser you hired?"
She bit back the need to defend. "Jim Bernstein's only charging me for expenses since he and Dad were friends." Knowing the information she was about to relay wouldn't be well-received, Addison braced. "I have an appointment to speak with a private detective this morning."
Gretchen cut her a sharp look. "Someone reputable, I hope."
Smiling at a customer who'd brought a set of musical Christmas mugs to the counter, Addison started for the cash register. "Jim recommended him."
Gretchen rolled her eyes and followed. "That's supposed to make me feel better?" she muttered in a low tone. "Lawyers. You can't trust them as far as you can throw them."
"I trust Jim."
"As long as you're not expecting Tom Selleck in a Hawaiian shirt."
"Hawaiian shirt or not, a private investigator may be able to cut through some of the red tape I haven't been able to unravel." Addison counted out change and handed it to the customer.
"Cut through your checkbook, more likely."
"Give me a little credit, Gretch. I'm a business woman. I can handle this." Glancing at her watch, Addison frowned. "I've got to get going."
"Don't sign anything," Gretchen warned.
Hoping for a quick escape, Addison snagged her purse and headed for the alley door. "Can you get by without me for an hour or so? I'll be back before the lunch rush."
"If you're not back by noon, I'm calling the cops."
From the door, Addison shot Gretchen a wry smile. "Better make it the S.W.A.T. team. I hear Jack Talbot's as crazy as he is good."